**This post is not referring to internet trolls. It refers to important people in my life. If it were internet trolls I would easily ignore it.**
I almost don’t want to bring this up again. However the past few days have been a complete disaster for me. All of it is being caused by the fact that I am in fact a female who streams video games.
I was told that I’m selling myself. And the comment didn’t come from some internet troll that I can just ignore and move on with my life.
I was told that I’m just seeking male attention. And money. Again, this wasn’t a message on a screen that I can choose to ignore.
I was told that I should give up one of my favorite hobbies: streaming video games.
At this point, I don’t even know how to move forward. Explaining doesn’t work. I tried that. I tried to say that when I stream I’m not flashing my boobs, trying to elicit money and compliments. I tried to say that I’m doing what I love, making people happy, being cheerful, building a community to talk with about games.
But it seems it’s of no use. I’m met with comments like: “You don’t know who’s watching you.” “You don’t know what they’re doing while watching you.” “You spend too much time playing, it’s unhealthy.”
Those are hurtful, but not the worst.
“You only do this for attention.” “You don’t even like video games.” “You let others manipulate you into doing this.”
What I don’t get is how I can say flat out:
“I love doing this. It is a huge passion of mine. I get to play games and cheer people up. What’s not to love.”
And I am met with:
“You don’t like it. You’re only doing it because someone else told you to.”
What can I say to change someone’s mind and make them see that this is fully my choice? That this is what I love? That I’m not just selling myself, putting my body out there in order to get money and attention?
I’m at a loss here.